About Midi Files ~ These were transferred from C-Lab Notator (Atari ST) to PC (ie they're music only, no vocals or guitar solos, although I've put in some guitar tracks as guides). They were mixed using a Sound Blaster Live card. The instruments may not be properly audible with other sound cards (That's the problem with General Midi but it's better than nothing, I guess).

Copyright ~ Please note that copyright exists for all material. You may not use or copy or distribute any material for any commercial reason or value whatsoever. I am exempting educational and personal use only. However, this exemption does not apply to recordings.

• Harvest Song • [1988~1990] ~ Midi file
Imagine an ethnic african tribe jumping up and down celebrating the harvest. I have no idea why I think of this everytime I play this song. Another "dance mix" type structure.

• Long Distance Runner • [1988~1990] ~ Midi file
Sometimes when you're just messing around with your favourite synth, you get lucky and stumble over a good riff. It's sort of african sounding. Reminds me of their amazing long-distance runners.

• On The Horizon • [1988~1990] ~ Midi file
During my "gamelan experiment" phase, I came up with this one which sounds siamese (thai). I also found that shortening the motif into other time-signatures sounded very interesting.

• Into The Wind • [1988~1990] ~ Midi file
If you've heard "Music For 18 Musicians" [Steve Reich], you'll appreciate this tune. I reckon it's better than the version done by Tangerine Dream for the movie "Risky Business"... but that's my opinion, isn't it?

• After The Rain • [1988~1990] ~ Midi file
A gamelan experiment : I took a few motifs from various traditional malaysian gamelan tunes and married them together to make this tune. Malaysian gamelan uses 4/4 time but motifs are in 12 bars... interesting, huh?

V1

I heard your song dancing with me ~ The wind clawed at my face and hands
I wonder if you felt the cold ~ Giving poison to the hungry

V2

The tinkle of glasses return ~ And remember the ice down your back
But once we walked by in the dark~ The sound of acid on the floor

Ch

We turned around and we laughed ~ The light touched you for a second
And I saw the lines on my hands ~ A silence kissed me in a dream

V3

The innocence of playful words ~ Another smile in the mirror
The smell of sleep melted away ~ Lying awake without thinking

V4

The cloudy scene under the trees ~ And my awaiting mouth is dry
Something like a wilted flower ~ And feeling sad on rainy days

V1

It creeps up my skin ~ I never looked again
I melted away that day ~ I couldn't get away

C1

Waiting ~ Without learning
Something burns ~ And I turn in my sleep

V2

The wall of bursting heat ~ And sweat fills my breath
I prayed for rain ~ Shadows spoke to me again

C2

I twist ~ And shouted aloud
Peeling off the layers ~ The pressing humid bodies

V3

Pry through the vapour ~ The spicy taste
Mingle in the mouth ~ And I spat it out

V1

Thinking of you next to me ~ Reflections moving sideways
My hand across another pillow ~ And the creases disappear

V2

The quiet hell I call my home ~ A chance to say I'm sorry
It never used to be this way ~ The curtains fall behind me

Ch

Transparency, your colour in me ~ The facts of life so nice to know
Intensity of passing years ~ Remembering so slowly

V3

Whispering to take your hand ~ I've no illusions about you
Nothing in the way I breathe ~ There's no glory at all

V1

I knew that moment would make all the difference ~ There's no right and wrong anymore
Not sure how it started, not sure why ~ And things would never be the same again

V2

The dream goes on because I can't let go ~ No excuses, no promises
Speaking without guilt and without fear ~ Don't make a wish but wait for miracles

Ch

The sound of the rain and the sea ~ There's always the breeze to remind me
Look in the mirror and what do you see ~ Maybe another reflection of me

V3

Each passing day it gets harder to remember ~ There are no reasons and no lies
Something real or another story ~ It starts so near but ends so far away

V4

Dreams begin and everything disappears forever ~ No more shadows and no more time
Out the window into the distance ~ I know the feeling never goes away

V1

The call of another dream ~ The song of breaking waves
Won't help to forget the time ~ A funeral for memories

V2

Glistening under the moon ~ A temporary permanence
Lost in a sea of colour ~ With thoughts of burning sails

V3

Another scar to hide away ~ Making paths to walk around
To bury the dead again ~ Waiting for shadows to speak

V4

I set the scene in flames ~ The ashes blinded my hands
Now you can watch me drown ~ Cos these are my unspoken voices

V1

Sitting here in the dark ~ A temporary silence in my heart
I dream of your secrets ~ When the lights have gone away

V2

Take a look out the window ~ The feeling in my eyes
A moment of weakness ~ You can look the other way

Ch

Listening to the footsteps ~ Like waiting for a kiss
Or the rain outside ~ The echoes of today

V3

Sleeping with the shadows ~ A blind familiar hand
Not another love song ~ A reason for me to stay

V4

The trace of your smile ~ And your arms around me
One more look at you ~ Before I have to go away

V1

The crowded sound of an empty room ~ The walls of silence I know so well
I don't need to die this way

V2

It touches me without permission ~ And turned to look the other way
We can all sit here like broken toys

V3

The aroma of uncertainty haunts me still ~ Keeps me twisting in my sleep again
Tragedies and defeat and I grin

V4

A lonely voice cuts deep into your skin ~ And my undevoted attention
Nobody said it was going to rain

V5

A fresh wind came and blew them in ~ Red sunsets waiting for the tide to turn
And I never stopped laughing

V1

Painted faces in my mirror today ~ I glance as fixed smiles go by
The walls begin to turn to dust ~ The floor moved an inch in the dark

V2

Falling into the trap of dreams ~ Peering through the wet glasses
I can feel the cold here ~ The burning candles don't listen

V3

A procession goes by my window ~ They will always stare blindly
Pointing fingers and stabbing words ~ My wounds won't bleed for them

V4

Question me with your eyes ~ And lick the blood from my face
A room in a state of mind ~ Don't ask me for reasons

V1

Across the room, across the floor ~ I could be halfway round the world by now
Feeling so tired as I hit the door ~ I would say something if I knew how

V2

In the shower, in the rain ~ Something's hit me in my face
Feel the drops, feel insane ~ I've got to get out of this place

Ch

It started out so easy ~ Everything was there
The reasons start to change (and now) ~ I don't know why I stare

V3

Inside my room, inside my home ~ It's falling down all over me
On the television, on my phone ~ Something's there but I can't see

V4

Thinking about me, dreaming about you ~ Maybe it's just that I don't know
It doesn't matter what you do ~ Just tell me that it isn't so

V1

Once I woke up in a dream ~ Something strange was in the air
I looked around and something was wrong ~ Then I realised that you weren't there

V2

I crawled around on fours in search ~ To find something but in vain
So I closed my eyes and tried to sleep ~ But my dreams kept me in pain

V3

In desperation I reached out ~ My hand crying out for another
But needles struck deep into my brain ~ And images of you became a blur

V4

I jumped and crashed through my window ~ The impact shattering all my bones
I lay there very cold and alone ~ Sprawled out on a pile of stones

V5

Visions of graves formed in the clouds ~ Floating high up in the air
And while life still ebbed within me ~ I wished I was up there

V6

Then I woke up from my dream ~ Something strange was in the air
I looked around and something was wrong ~ Then I realised that you weren't there

V1

It doesn't seem quite the same, so nearly underwater ~ A stillness in the air, breathing so close to you ~ How many times can you wait for him to call ~ What can you do when you lose that smile

V2

The porcelain sweats tonight, insomnia watching over ~ The people who come and go, the shadows behind your thoughts ~ Dreaming of silence when you can't go to sleep ~ Counting the hours till you're wide awake again

Ch

Everything's on paper, think you've found someone ~ Photographs in colour, when you're having fun ~ Looks good on paper, start to get ahead ~ Dreams in colour, still awake in bed

V3

Listening to the rain, reminding you of the sea ~ Another night in the dark, waiting for inspiration ~ Looking for someone you'd like to get to know ~ Floating away on your dreams of going home

V4

Thinking of another song, that wasn't so long ago ~ Reasons for leaving here, feeling too ordinary ~ Hoping for someone to turn up at the door ~ Wishing that someday you could start your life again

V1

You walked into the room ~ I thought I saw a smile
A flick of the eye, a twist in the tale ~ I wondered if you ever walked alone

V2

A twinkle of a star ~ The promise of another land
A song in the dark, a tune in the silence ~ Maybe I'll never understand

V3

Blind kisses in the night ~ Dancing in the hall
The curtains are shut, the lights are down ~ I wish the words were there for me to say

V4

The view through the window ~ And dying on the floor
The bed is made, the tide is turning ~ Running away from something I can't see

V5

The things I used to know ~ The dreams I've left behind
A few words to me, would make all the difference ~ When will the colours fade away

V1

The scent began to linger ~ Before you left the room
Puzzle me with cryptic clues ~ The dense smell in a tomb

V2

Your statue as cold as steel ~ With each cutting remark
You turn around and look away ~ You only smile in the dark

C1

A smile in the dark ~ Is not a smile at all
Does it feel that good ~ To be standing so tall?

V3

To be admired from afar ~ How could you be so vain?
The false image of an idol ~ Out of reach and without pain

V4

Feel safe behind the locked door ~ You know the keys have no mark
You can turn and walk away ~ And only smile in the dark

C1

A smile in the dark ~ Is not a smile at all
I think that you're afraid ~ They'll laugh if you should fall

V1

Here we sit as it steals our youth and feelings ~ We stand alone with our work and memories
Carry us through the darkness in our eyes ~ Table for two, hopeful candlelight

Ch

I'm so sorry ~ that we can't spare the time
I'm so sorry ~ that we can't spare the time

V2

Take out the pack, another cigarette ~ Smokey spirals deep within our minds
Hand in hand, feeling sweat in the palms ~ Another smile and I've lost my way

V3

Give me a clue so I know you're here ~ Your distant lips take a sip from the glass
Conversation getting farther away ~ Killing the time not ours to use

V1

My love is many years ago ~ Forgotten with the many dreams
The smell of Sundays in the air ~ Bring back the meaning of words

V2

The stabbing eyes that stare ~ Never believe the sound of truth
Lips smile a million miles away ~ And never tell the meaning of words

V3

Breathe in and take aim ~ Face to face and still I miss
The hands are hard and wrinkled ~ And can't hear the meaning of words

V4

When I'm blind and numb ~ To any forward motion to me
How can I see or feel ~ Or ever know the meaning of words